Since embarking on my journey to Italy, I have felt the most vulnerable, the most scared, the most frustrated, but also the most alive I have ever felt. I also have never bought so many unnecessary things on amazon, i.e a UV LED Nail Lamp because ya girl doesn’t know where to get here nails done out here (more on that a different time)!

I had a moment recently while on a mini Holiday, or so they call it here, (for us in the States we usually say a weekend getaway, but anyway I digress). During this moment I found myself alone on a little private beach in Conca Dei Marini; the sun was setting and the hoards of people that were visiting for Ferragosto seemed to have disembarked to their boats or wherever it was they were returning to.

With the Amalfi Coast in view, I took a jump into the ocean. The water seemed calm enough, and to ease my worries there was a ladder leading into the water which signaled to me this was a safe thing to do, although my mother’s inner voice might say otherwise.

Despite my Pisces nature, I will admit that when in the ocean I have fleeting moments of panic, always for fear of a shark or jellyfish coming for me. Talk about childhood learned fears, but I’m working on those. When I jumped into that water I have never felt so small, so uncomfortable. I realized in that moment, dramatics aside, if something were to happen to me nobody would know. My cellphone was even dead. All of these fears rose to the surface and instead of floating peacefully in this little tucked in slice of heaven, I frantically doggy paddled to cling onto the ladder and stood there a long while with a racing heart. This seems to be a metaphor for where I am on my spiritual journey right now: I can either chose to cling to what I know with crippling fear or flow into the unknown with steadfast peace.

After much reflection, I’m choosing to swim towards peace; peace that can’t be shaken. In the days since that humbling experience, I have been met with so much legality frustration, there should be a yoga course on how to breathe through Italian Bureaucracy because, well if you know, you know. Through it all though, I keep going back to that feeling of feeling so small in the midst of vastness. It is a testament to my experience of picking up and leaving everything behind and jumping into the big unknown. I’ve always been one to advocate for being comfortable with being uncomfortable and in that moment I believe I felt my truth. Sometimes you have to laugh at the way in which you are called to walk your talk!

Anyway, I think that when you are able to acknowledge your smallness in the midst of vastness, you are then able to see it’s not a matter of big or small, it’s a matter of the interconnectedness of it all. If you’re able to dwell in the interconnectedness of, well, everything, you are able to meet peace. Peace meets you where you are, so long as you are open to it. Peace is a conscious choice, and once you decide on it, not even the most untenable waters can revel it up.

To that I say cin cin to Peace. May it always be the default route of our hearts, whatever traffic or unforeseeable bumps in the road that may await.

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Love and light!

Xx, Sab